32. A Lonely World

‘Oh. Emerged from your bat cave, I see?’ Lily pulled a slice of cake from the fridge as her sister continued picking at her burger, taking tiny bites. ‘God, you eat weird.’

‘I can’t do anything right by you, can I? Let me eat how I bloody well want to!’

‘For gnomes sake, touchy much!’

Swallowing her tiny mouthful, Freya glanced at her twin. ‘So where’ve you been with that idiot then?’

‘That idiot has a name.’

That idiot’s still an idiot.’

‘Freya!’

‘Just a simple question Lil,’ Freya retorted as she turned her attention back to her burger. ‘You don’t have to answer it.’

‘We went to the park, if you must know. We had been doing our English assignment, but then someone decided to listen to their stupid music at rock concert level so we went out.’

‘Oh. Sorry about that. Didn’t think.’

‘Take it your homework wasn’t going too well either?’

Freya shook her head, still concentrating on her burger. ‘Just wanted to drown it all out, really.’

‘Drown what out?’

‘So what did you get up to at the park?’ Freya changed the subject clumsily. She didn’t particularly want a d&m with her sister.

Lily’s cheeks flushed pink. ‘He asked me to the prom.’

‘He… What?!’

*       *       *

‘So what did she say when you told her? I’m still surprised you had an actual conversation! First in over a year, right?’ Bianca laughed. The pair were studying at homework club that night; the volume of Freya’s music had reached earsplitting levels.

‘Something like that, I know! She didn’t really say anything, just took the other half of her burger up to her room a few minutes later.’

‘She’s so funny with her food, I noticed that when I had tea at yours the other week. You don’t think she’s got some sort of disorder or anything?’

‘Nah, she’s just… She always seems so distracted, like she can’t concentrate on anything. She eats plenty, she just takes her time doing it. I think the only thing she focuses on are those books of hers, she’s got a whole library under her bed.’

‘I just don’t get her! She loves reading, but she’s failing so badly at school. Strange girl! You’re definitely the good twin, Lily,’ Bianca grinned at her friend. ‘She probably just can’t comprehend the concept of dating and getting close to someone! Let’s face it, she’s been doing a good enough job of pushing everyone away for years now.’

*       *       *

‘Freya, honey, we need to have a little chat. Erm… What are you reading? Oh, Game of Thorns! Any good?’

Freya nodded.

‘Good, good! Now listen, about your music… It’s just getting out of hand. No-one can focus on anything and it’s shaking the house down to the foundations. You know I don’t mind you listening to your music, but there has to be a limit. It can’t be good for your hearing, it nothing else! You really need to keep it down, honey. Your father’s getting quite angry about it, he’s talking about sending your stereo away to have a volume limiter or something  fitted to it. That or having it thrown out your bedroom window!’

Freya turned the page.

‘Are you listening to me?’

‘Yes Mum. I’ll keep it down or use headphones.’

‘…Right. Well… Thank you for being reasonable about this.’

Freya turned the page.

‘So how was school?’

‘Fine, thank you.’

‘Have you done your homework?’

Freya lied and turned the page.

‘Are you excited for the dance next week? Lily’s so looking forward to it! I’m so pleased she’s got a date, and Finlay is such a nice lad!’ Louise chattered away about Lily, and Freya found that she couldn’t escape into her book any more. She was dragged out a little each time a word passed her mother’s lips.

She couldn’t get away from it. The warmth in her mother’s voice when she spoke about her sister. The tone that was missing when she spoke about her…

*       *       *

So, Freya! Erm… We were wondering, we were going to go prom dress shopping and… Well… Do you want to come too?’

Freya looked up from her book to see Lily and her friends stood in her doorway, a look of naive hopefulness on her twin’s face and plastered smiles on those of Bianca and Chanterelle. They didn’t want her along. Not really.

‘No, it’s okay. I’m not going.’

‘Not going?!’ The three girls exclaimed in unison, the concept alien to them. It was prom. You didn’t just simply not go to prom!

‘Yeah, it’s not my thing. Have, er… fun?’

‘Oh for gnomes sake, Freya! Do you have to be so difficult? Do you actually go out of your way to not have any friends?!’ Bianca erupted as Lily stared at her sister. ‘Lily didn’t have to ask you to come with us! She’s only trying to make sure you don’t go through life having absolutely no-one, because that’s what you have, Freya Rivers! No-one!’

‘I just don’t want to go to prom!’

‘Who’re you kidding?! You’d love to go, you just don’t have anyone to go with! You read enough books about proms! About proms, and nights out, and hanging out with your friends, and everything normal people actually do! Why don’t you stop reading about having a life and just go outside and bloody well have one!’

*

Freya ignored the squeals of delight coming from the living room as the three girls modelled their dresses for their mothers as she waited for the computer to power on. At least Mum has one daughter she can do all the things she wants with, she thought idly.

Reading wasn’t enough any more. She couldn’t bury herself in her books any more, she couldn’t drown out the rest of the world.

She had to create a new one for herself, and she knew just the way to do it. Opening a new word document, Freya took a deep breath and began to type.

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27 thoughts on “32. A Lonely World

  1. Oh, Freya…

    I’ve had a bit of a soft spot for the troublemaker, and it certainly looks like she hasn’t done herself any favors growing up. Now she has the consequences, and no one really seems that willing to let her change.

    • Yeah that’s the thing, if you behave a certain way for too long it doesn’t really matter any more… People already view you in a particular way and won’t let you make amends. Thanks for reading 🙂

  2. Poor Freya. I can understand how she feels now. Always looked down on, over shadowed by her sister. 😦 lily is nice but too perfect. I like Freya. Did something happen in her past that we don’t know about?

    • Erm something somewhat happened, it’ll become clearer in coming chapters. I’m saying that a lot here, haha! Thank you so much for reading 🙂

  3. Oh Freya ❤
    I really do feel bad for her. While Lily is nice to her, I can't help but like Freya better. All she wants is to make her Mum proud in some way, but Lily is so "perfect" that she feels like there is no use in trying and locks herself away in her music and books.
    Poor dear ❤ I wish Lily's friends would just give her a break- she's not bothering them, so just leave her alone!
    Lastly… does Freya have a little crush on Finlay? Or was she just stunned by her sister's proposal to prom.? Hmmmm….

    • Hmmm, Freya and Finlay… Let’s just say that there is something there, but it’s not necessarily romantic… It’ll become clearer in a couple of chapters time 😉
      Thanks for reading! 🙂 I really do appreciate it, and I’m catching up with your legacy tonight after work!!

  4. Poor Freya! Both girls really don’t know how to react with each other… Lily is good, but it annoyed the living daylights out of me that everyone was all like “Lily, you are the good twin.”

    So the way I see it, Freya feels inadequate, so she shuts everyone else out because “who would want to be with her?” and Lily feels that Freya just doesn’t like people, or her for that matter, so she pushes people away. Am I wrong?

    It saddens me even more that not only are the teenagers acting like that, but without realizing it, Dylan and Louise are also pushing Freya off to the side in favor of Lily. I enjoyed the chapter nonetheless. 🙂 Can’t wait for more insight on the twins. And good luck to Lily with Finlay…

    So I checked out the chapters page, and it shows both Lily and Freya as the heirs. Does that mean you are doing a dual heirship thing?

    • It means I haven’t decided yet, haha! I may go for both, it’d be fun to have two heirs I think, but I might have a poll when they both reach young adulthood. Having a think 🙂

      Thanks for reading! I’m pleased you enjoyed the chapter, and I’m loving the Freya speculation. I won’t answer right now because it’ll become clearer in coming chapters, but you’re on the right lines!

  5. I feel so bad for Freya. It seems like she is often overshadowed by her twin sister. I can totally relate to her as I have two older brothers, and sometimes it gets really annoying to always be compared to your siblings. I don’t think Freya means to be “away” from her family in a way. I just think that she tries to make her mom proud, but in the end, she’s always compared to Lily. I still like both girls, and if you aren’t doing a duel heirship (which is an awesome idea!) I will have a tough time choosing which one to vote for.

    PS: I noticed you got supernatural. How is it? I’m definitely thinking of running to the store tomorrow to buy the game! 😀

    • Hiya! I really like Supernatural actually, although I’m not entirely sure how I can involve it in my legacy properly… Not sure about going down that route, but will have a think 🙂 I do like it though, so much content, but I think I’ll enjoy Seasons more when November finally rolls around!

      Thank you for reading 🙂 I’m looking forward to getting stuck into your new legacy as soon as I get the chance!

  6. Poor Freya, It’s not nice when your parents thinks one of their daughters is better than the other! I hope she finds some escape in writing.
    Lily and Finlay are very cute together:) I hope their prom date goes well unlike Dylan and Lou’s!:) The girls make gorgeous teens.
    Sorry it’s taken me so long to read and comment, been a busy bee!:)
    Look forward to the next chapter!:)

    • It’s fine, sorry it’s taken me so long to respond!! Hope you’re a little less busy atm, haha. Thanks for reading, and I’m pleased you enjoyed it!

  7. For some strange reason your new post never appeared on my reader, or I must have missed it? Either way, I stumbled on your new post anyway. Poor Freya. She was so hurt when her mother said she couldn’t trust her. It just doesn’t seem like Lou to say something like that. Hopefully Freya’s writing will at least help her have an outlet for her frustrations. We’ve all been there before, in one way or another, I’m sure. Can’t wait to read more – especially about what happened with her and Finlay!
    Oh, btw, I finally put up a new chapter if you’d like to check it out 🙂

    • I didn’t see it as Louise deliberately slagging off her daughter, more an offhand comment that was accidentally harsh on Freya if that makes sense?
      I will get to reading your new post(s?) as soon as I can, hoping to do a bit of catching up tonight!
      Thanks for reading 🙂

  8. I just read this entire blog in two days because I was so in love with the Rivers! It’s amazing how well you could write this and get picture shots perfectly from Sims. I hope you continue, I’d love to see an update!

    • Aw, thank you so much! I’m so pleased you love my legacy 🙂 I am absolutely carrying on with the story, hoping to get an update out very shortly!
      Thank you so much for reading 🙂

  9. Heeyy 🙂 i’ve only just had the chance to catch-up, great chapter as always. I like both the twins, I feel really sorry for Freya and hope she can be happier soon, but I like Lily too and was so happy when Finlay asked her to prom, I do hope that whatever happened between him and freya isn’t something awful :/ ha. Hope to see a new chapter soon 🙂 xx

  10. Hello! I haven’t started reading yet, but I just came to comment on the newest post. I wanted to know if you were still doing this, as the last time you updated was on September 5th. I just finished your Emmett legacy challenge and it is one of the greatest things I’ve ever read. I stayed up way too late some nights just so I could read it. You mixed tension, humor, romance, and hundreds of other genres into one fantastic tale which I will definitely miss! I really hope you aren’t finished with your Rivers legacy, as even though I haven’t started it yet, I already know from my previous experience with the Emmets that it will be amazing!

    • Aww, thank you so much, I’m so pleased you loved the Emmett legacy so much! 😀 That means a lot to hear. I’m not finished with the Rivers, having just updated now, I’ve just been sorely lacking in motivation. Hopefully that’s all sorted now though! 🙂

      I hope you enjoy The Rivers just as much as you enjoyed The Emmetts 🙂 x

  11. Ouch, now I feel bad for calling Freya a brat, because she ended up turning into me. I can really relate to her struggles to fit in. 😦

    Another great chapter. Prom is always so much fun, I had a blast screencapping the prom scene with Turquoise and Aqua in my legacy and you always take the most amazing pictures. I;m excited to see what sort of shenanigans your Sims will get up to at their prom!

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